He was mad at me coz I let the doctor took him and put him to sleep in the OT.
When they woke him up, he couldn't stop shouting and refused everybody next to him.
Aku paling teruk.. he don't want me at all. Kicked and pushed me away.
"Ariff tanak mummy!"
Rasa nak nangis. He don't want me.
Rasa macam aku lah mak yang paling worst dalam dunia ni. Useless. Hopeless. Tak boleh nak tenangkan anak sendiri.
Emosi tak stabil. Maybe sebab pregnancy hormon.
Kesian baby dalam perut ni. Makan ntah kemana..emo je hari2 :(