Funny when I couldn't find any Raya photos in this blog or fb (ada tapi just few years: 2008, 2009 & 2010 ja ada). Make me wonder.. kenapa tak upload? Terlupa?
Selagi masih dalam bulan Ramadhan ni, aku just nak wish satu ja. I just want this family become whole again. I want to be close with my Mamoru. To stay and raise our kids together. I don't care how or what. Sama ada dia tukar ke KL atau aku transfer ke Melaka.
I get a lot of bad impression when staying alone here with my kids. Most people I met thought I'm a divorcee or single mother. It hurts ok. Men look at me differently. And women pulak, perhaps they scared I'm gonna steal their man.
I used to ignore negative thoughts like that. But most of the time I cry a lot. I'm not superwoman. I can run 100km. I can climb highest mountain. Still, I'm no superwoman. I cry. Superwoman dont cry.
I never tell Mamoru about this. I don't want him to be worried. I just wanted him to know that I'm happy. I'm strong. Just nak dia tenang2. But who am I fooling? I can't always put that brave mask on coz it's getting heavier. Cukup lah.
Moga wish nan satu ni dimakbulkan.
2011 (2010 dalam pc kat umah.. tsk)