Every finishing line is a beginning of a new race!
Friday, October 31, 2014
Dalam teksi, tetiba..
Pacik teksi: Dengar berita ke lagu?
Pacik teksi: Orang muda memang suka dengar lagu (senyum toleh tengok aku pastu tukar radio station dari news ke lagu)
Me: Takpe pacik, saya tak kisah pun (ekceli aku tengah dengar lagu kat earphone, dia pulak tanya aku nak dengar lagu or news kat kat radio. Rasa bersalah pulak)
Pacik: Awak mesti suka lagu ni... (lagu Ramli Sarip. Kebetulan aku baru dengar lagu yang sama kat earphone)
Kat gerai kuih depan lrt Bandar Tun Razak. Tetiba kena peluk dengan stranger.
Makcik jual kuih: Wangiiii nya kamu ni. (sambil peluk aku kuat2)
Me: Erk (tergamam. Ramai pulak yang pandang)
Makcik jual kuih: Pakai perfume apa ni? (Still peluk tanak lepaskan)
Makcik jual kuih: Ohh.. perfume mahal. Patut la wangiiiii.. (baru dia lepaskan aku)
That makcik made my day already! Thanks for the hug. I just realised that I do need it.
I love free hug! Ngeee..
Thursday, October 30, 2014
9 days left before Nuang Marathon.
Serious cakap, nervous beb.
Participant untuk kategori women open 42km tak ramai. So far ada 11 orang je. Tak sure kenapa tak ramai yang join. Maybe sebab route yang menggila kot. Cut off time pun 14 jam. Ikutkan timing tu lebih dari cukup. Cuma kalau boleh tanak la sampai terpaksa lari dalam hutam taim malam. Keje gila tu. Aku dah la agak rabun taim malam.. tsk.
Honestly, it would be a nightmare and embarrassing moment kalau aku jadi peserta wanita terakhir yang keluar dari hutan dan sampai ke garisan penamat. Pada aku, tak dapat podium takpa.. janji kau bukan orang lastttt haha. Malu ok. Kalau ramai yang join takde la obvious sangat. 11 orang, senang nak recoqnize huhu!
Dalam 11 orang peserta, 4 orang aku kenal. Semua orang kuat gunung. Jenis kalau hiking sesama, memang berdesup hilang kat depan.
Kak Arie antara yang hebat. Dia lari marathon kat Everest bulan June aritu. Impress ok! Masa hike sesama kat Murud pun kak Arie sentiasa kat depan. Hazabb nak follow step dia.
Wani pulak memang climbathoner. Ahad ni dia join climbathon Gunung Gajah Terom kat Ganu. Ganas awek ni.
Elsa, aku kena kat Tahan. Lajuu. Dia pun rajin join race camni. Dengar aritu dia dapat top 3 masa Gua Tempurung Challenge kat Kampar.
Sorang lagi geng Karat Adv. Ultra light + ultra fast hikers. Trans Titi V1 or V2 selamba je belasah dalam 3 hari. Hebat.
Yang lelain tak kenal.
Malam ni tak keluar lari. Hujan. Layan tangga lagi. Lari dari tepi swimming pool kat ground floor sampai tingkat 10. Buat 6 loop. Hazabbbbb. Peluh macam baru keluar dari swimmping pool.. lencun.
She's my new idol.
She was a housewife with two small daughters when she decided to run. Before that, she had never run a single step. At that time, she was 27 years old.
Now she's 60 years old! And still running! Laju gila pulak tu. I bet no women kat Malaysia ni boleh lari full marathon selaju dia.
Now, its a challenge for me. I might not gonna win a world class marathon, but InsyaAllah, one day, I will win one of Malaysian punya marathon and own that title for as long as I can.
Quotes by Christine:
"When I'm out there, I never think about how old I am or how young my competitors are. No, not at all. I guess if I were in my 30s and a 50-year-old passed me, I'd be devastated. But what I hope I'm doing is encouraging and motivating other people to keep going," Kennedy says.
"I know so many runners who live in the past and don't make adjustments physically or mentally for their age. They end up injured and not racing. I try to dwell in the present and recognize the limitations placed on me by age. Just because a person is 55 doesn't mean she can't get out on the track and do some speed work. I love the feel of doing speed work. Running has made me who I am and I don't want to lose that, and I hope I can inspire some women to keep running as they get older."
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Kira bersyukur la dapat lari 5km. Daripada hujan 2 minggu tak dapat lari kan..
Kusangkakan hujan sampai ke malam rupanya cerah dihujung2 petang.
So, sarung kasut dan lari.
Bajet nak buat 3 loop. Tapi masuk loop kedua ternampak kakak jual donut kat area Sekolah Alam Shah dulu.
Stop beli. Dan stop lari. Yelah, camne nak lari dengan donut seplastik besar kan.
Balik rumah pekena donut dengan kiddos. Malam kang kita layan tangga pulak. Setuju? Tak setuju? Layankan aje.
Too many misunderstanding pagi ni.
The best part, aku tak perasan langsung. Not until my bff mention yang other people start fikir benda lain.
Like one of my bff (a guy) tagged me about a runner dgn his son lari sama2 kat finishing line with a caption "I wish, one fine day".
For me, honestly, the pic can be construed in two ways. Either dia maksudkan dia tak sabar nak kahwin and dapat baby so that dia boleh buat macam dalam gambar tu or dia maksudkan satu hari nanti, aku boleh bawak kiddos lari macam dalam gambar tu.
Anw, I like that pic. So I replied "Soon".
Tak sangka pulak orang fikir lain. They thought aku dgn my bff ni nak kawen. Patut la aku perasan ada yang reply something like 'love is in the air la.. etc.'
Hahahahallo! Sangat lawak antarabangsa.
Another misunderstanding, tak payah cerita lah. Its all started dengan benda yang sama macam situasi kat atas ni. Tapi dah jadi issue besar pula. Tak terkata aku dibuatnya. Anw, not my fault.. so buat bodo je lah..
Macam2. Kadang2 kita takda apa2. Orang je yang lebih2 sampai buat kita nampak macam ada apa2.
Mcam nak hujan je petang ni. Baca niat LSD dalam hati je lah nampaknya.
Since tak lari and ada banyak masa jom gi shopping. Nak cari Celcom centre. Nak tukar data plan.. tukar telefon (hamboihhhh), etc.
I'm not good with pressure. Cuti adalah jalan terbaik untuk relax.
Nak membuta ja arini. Harap tak hujan petang nih. Nak buat LSD. Nak lari jauh2.
Malam tadi belek entry lama. Jumpa gambar2 lama dengan orang kuat yang selalu bawa aku masuk hutan panjat gunung taim bujang2 dulu.
Orang yang secara tak langsung buat jiwa ni kental.
Teringat zaman melepak kedai mamak sampai pukul 3, 4 pagi. Zaman gila naik gunung. Zaman masa life aku just ada 2 orang mamat ni.. haha.
Best friend forever.
Terining nak hike bertiga macam dulu.
Finally organizer updated my name.
My first ever trail marathon cum climbathon.
Ekceli, not really ready for this. So many distraction.. plus half of the route (via Janda Baik, Pahang), aku tak familiar langsung. Tak ada masa dah nak recce. Whatever. Lari je lah selagi mampu.
Cut off time untuk Nuang Marathon 14 hours. Harap aku tak perlu nak lari sampai 14 jam non stop. Tak sanggup nak menghadap trail Nuang time malam. Hazabb kot.
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Told a friend, if I survive 42km Nuang Marathon next week, and if I manage to finish within my personal target timing, I will upgrade my Borneo Ultra Trail Marathon from 50km to 100km next year.
So that tahun depan, I'm going to have 2 stupid challenges/missions :
1. To run 100km on road
2. To run 100km on trail
That should keep my legs busy and my body exhausted and my brain idle.
Ariff request donut pagi ni.
Sedih bila tak dapat tunaikan. Lebih sedih bila lalu kat lrt ni nampak orang jual donut.
Ikutkan, boleh ja kalau beli dan patah balik ke BBIM hantar donut. Tapi aku dah lambat. Double sedih.
Pagi2 mood sedih memang silap lah kalau orang cari pasal dengan aku.
Kena pulak couple sebelah aku asyik nak berpeluk dari tadi. Dengan lrt sempit, setiap kali depa bergerak, alih tangan pegang sana sini, mesti tergesel dengan badan aku, dada aku, bontot aku. Bengang lah kan. Apehal involve aku pulak? Nak threesomes ka? Bodoh. Memang mintak kena maki free. Padan muka. Next time, go get a room la beb!
Next, siapa nak mintak kena maki or tapak kaki? Angin aku tak reda lagi ni.
Monday, October 27, 2014
Sokay aD.. sokay. There's nothing in this world u can't handle.
All the pain will gone. Macam muscle yang sakit lepas lari long distance. Sehari dua baik la tu.
Mental sekejap tadi bila tersilap naik train. Sengal. Bazir setengah jam tunggu next train and kena tukar lagi kat Chan Sow Lin. Dah la balik lambat arini.. stress.
Lets hilangkan stress dengan pekena nenas campur asam boi. Recovery snack yang super seddepppp.
Pasnih kita training tangga 12 tingkat. Buat 2 or 3 loop suddahh. Nak lari ujan. Katanya ada ribut tornado sepanjang minggu ni kat area KL & Selangor.
Semalam kansel plan nak naik Nuang via Janda Baik. Bangun lambat, boleh? Pastu incik Malas datang melawat.
So, spend quality time with kiddos and Mamoru. Tapi tak kualiti sangat lah since Mamoru kena remote pc ofis Melaka. Network problem. Bilik server kat Melaka berasap katanya. Suhu naik sampai 50°c.
But then he make it up with kiddos. All of us ikut cakap Ariff, main hide and seek sampai mommy & daddy surrender. It was fun! Semua jadi budak2. Amarr paling suka jadi tukang cari. Asyik2 dia cari. Balik2 dia je. Dan mommy orang yang paling pandai sembunyi.. hahaha.
Dengar semalam ada kemalangan kat Nuang. Sampai JPA datang rescue.
One of the hiker jatuh patah tangan. Hope that hiker bukan one of Nuang marathoner. Sebab kalau trail runner, sure dia akan maklum trail Nuang macam mana. But then, malang tak berbau kan.. boleh jadi kat sesiapa pun.
Harap semua yang join marathon kat gunung Nuang lebih berhati2. Musim hujan. Trek memang licin. Kalau boleh elakkan training sebelah petang.
Another 12 days to go before Nuang Marathon.
*tarik nafas dalam2*
Sunday, October 26, 2014
Saturday, October 25, 2014
Again did my solo run kat gunung Nuang via Pangsun this morning.
Naik 2 jam 57 minit. Turun 2 jam 20 minit. Tak dapat break timing last week :(
Tapi takpa.. yang penting tak injured dan kaki tak sakit. Coz esok nak hike Nuang via Janda Baik pulak. Cuma esok tak kejar masa. Just nak cek route. Saja nak sedapkan hati. So that masa race nanti tak la mental.
This weekend last lari kat Nuang. Next week dah takda masa. Ada Pacetters 30km kat Padang Merbuk. Hope membantu la sikit utk performance Nuang Marathon ni..
Haih. Risau. First time lari trail 42km. Lari cross gunung pulak tu. Nih bukan marathon dah.. ni dah tahap climbathon. Panjat gunung Nuang 2 kali dalam sehari! Cut off time 14 jam.
Harap sangat aku boleh complete the race in 11 hours max. Coz kalau lebih dari tu, aku terpaksa berlari sampai malam. Wish that didn't happen.
Friday, October 24, 2014
Thursday, October 23, 2014
Not too long ago, I was deep in my closet, cleaning out the clutter, when I found an old tin box FULL of letters. Sitting on the floor, I began reading one after another. They were love letters, written to my husband, David.
My heart began to sink and my eyes filled with tears as I read sentences like:
"Hello gorgeous, how's my darling, sexy, charming, romantic, thoughtful, loving man doing?"
"I miss you so much I feel like I'm going to go crazy!"
"I feel like something wonderful is getting ready to happen in your life!"
All I could think was, Who is this girl?
Reading her letters, I was overcome by feelings of jealously. She was sexy, fun, romantic and totally in love with my man! Some letters had hand-drawn images and others were sealed with a kiss, literally -- with pink lipstick that looked as if it were just kissed yesterday.
I felt as if I were reading the letters of my husband's mistress, yet the truth was, it wasn't his mistress; these letters were from me, written as a twenty-something-year-old girl. I felt so many emotions, but most of all shame because that girl was long gone and in her place was a stressed out, anxious 40-year-old mother of two.
I no longer made Dave feel wanted, let alone desirable; but more like a roommate or friend. Reading the letters, I saw the loss of my girl, the one he fell in love with and married. Traci Shafer was encouraging, always laughing, dancing, singing and saw beauty in everything around her. Traci Bild, well... let's just say she had a lot on her plate.
In a strange way, I felt sorry for Dave. With my growing business, two kids and a home to manage, I simply didn't have the time or energy for him anymore. Closing the box, I tucked the letters back where I found them. I thought to myself, You've changed.For days I thought about those letters. The passion and emotion in them was intoxicating and I was tired of being tired. I wanted what my twenty-something year old girl had. More importantly, I wanted what she and my husband had together, so I set out to find her.
The first thing I did was make an effort to have more fun. When cleaning, I played blasting music, I traded the treadmill for kick boxing and the park bench for the swing next to my kids.
Next, I started bringing fun into my marriage. From disco dancing in the kitchen, going on pub crawls to taking road trips together, our relationship returned to its roots with fun front and center. Slowly, the woman Dave married returned. The truth was she was there all along -- she was just buried in responsibility.
Being a woman today isn't easy; there's always going to be more to do than hours in the day. What I learned from this experience is the importance of prioritizing the things that matter most and having Dave at the bottom of that list wasn't going to work. I pushed him to the top and our family is better off for it. Here are a few more things I did that had lasting effects on our relationship. I encourage you to give them a try:
Offer compliments! Make an effort to compliment your partner every day. I know, it's hard to even consider this being that no one ever says "Thanks for unloading the dishwasher," or "You look amazing today!" The goal is to focus on your own behaviors and see where they take you. Compliments such as "Thanks for trimming the trees today, they look great," or "You look gorgeous!" will change the tone of your relationship.
Spend time alone. Even though you live together, odds are you rarely have time alone. Consider making date night a weekly norm. If you can't do that, then create a 20-minute window to talk, have a glass of wine or slow dance in the kitchen. If the very thought of this scares you, it's long past due. Intimacy, while hard to maintain is the key to a great relationship.
Make it fun! Make a vow: No dinner and a movie dates! When dating, odds are you and your husband did things that were fun. Try new and interesting things like playing racquetball or going bowling, take a cooking class together or hitting a theme park and riding roller coasters! Does this take work? Yes, but it's worth the effort.
Create new habits. While it's easy to try these ideas once or twice, the truth is you have to put in real effort and be consistent if you want to see results. Our society is all about immediate gratification, but in this case, you have to work for it. The question to ask is, "Is my relationship worth it?" Compliment your man daily, give him a solid 20 minutes of you time every day, plan weekly date nights and have some good old-fashioned fun.
It's so easy to be apathetic and lament, "Why is this up to me, he doesn't do any of these things!" Could it be that your partner is so disconnected he doesn't event think it's possible to reconnect again? Does the thought "That this is as good as it gets" scare you a bit? What if he were to meet "YOU 20 years ago" tomorrow?
In marriage, the odds are against us. We must be willing to roll up our sleeves and put in some work. This also means letting go of all ego or concerns over who's pulling the weight. I was no longer the girl my husband married, but I realized it before it was too late because he was too kind to tell me. It terrifies me to think how different my life and that of my children might have been if I had ignored the warning signs and not put my marriage on the list.
|Pic taken by Amarr. Gegar pulak :)|
Buka mata pagi ni, masih kat KL lagi.
I wish I kat Cameron.
I wanna go there
I wanna go there
I wanna go there
Let me go there.
I wanna go.
p/s: Do u remember last time, when love is strawberry? It tastes sweet and sour. But u added honey. And everythings better.
Yeah, miss that.
Hujan tengah2 malam ni best kalau dapat makan strawberry dengan honey.
I wish I were at Cameron right now. I really want to go there. In fact I'm more than willing to drive there tonight semata sebab strawberry.
Advise untuk diri sendiri:
Anw, bila rasa marah, always fikir yang baik2. Kenyangkan perut yang kosong. Baru fikiran jadi rational.
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
Kiddos enjoying their breakfast makan roti and donut sambil tengok tv and ipad.
Then I stand in front of them making a little announcement.
Me : "Guys, mommy have something to tell you"
Then Ariff quickly turn off the tv and asked Amarr to pause the video on the ipad.
Normal reaction to show me that they're interested to listen to whatever I'm going to say. Don't u love them! They're awesome.
Ariff : "What mommy?"
Me : "Mommy is going to take you to somewhere special"
My trademark words. I emphasized each word. Love to use them to make kiddos more excited.
Ariff : "Where?!"
Amarr : "Supermarket?"
Nak tergelak dengar Amarr cakap camtu. Fine, sebab mommy asyik bawak korang pegi supermarket je kan.. beli ikan.. tskk.
Me : "No sayang, we are not going to the supermarket. We are going to a place where we can see a lot of animals!"
Ariff : "We are going to the Zoo?! Yayyy!!"
Amarr : "There's a lot of dinosaur kan mommy?"
Me : "There's no dinosaur in the Zoo, baby. But there's elephant, giraffe, zebra...."
Then all of sudden Amarr crying like mad! Macam somebody rampas something dari dia.
Aku pandang Ariff and Ariff pandang aku. I was like, what?? Did I say something wrong?
Took me 15 mins to calm him down.
Lepas Amarr ok. Aku Google kat mana nak cari dinosaur. Maybe Ariff dengar aku kalut sorang2 then dia bagi suggestion;
Ariff : "We can watch dinosaur in the movie. Mommy buy the ticket"
Thats a brilliant idea from a 5 years old kids.
But, cerita apa yang ada dinosaur kat cinema sekarang ni???
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
I thought of this over a million times
Who would have ever thought that it will be our time?
I just know it,
'cause you are the one
It ain't a selfish love, when I'm with you
You remind me of Allah and so I know it's true
I'll just say it
You are the one
Won't you be my BFF and ever?
Won't you be my partner after this world?
We'll see it, when we believe it together
Dreams are meant to be
'Cause you are the one for me
I never thought that I would feel this way
I ask Allah to bless you every single day
I'll just say it
'Cause you are the one
And when the times are tough
And we've got the world to see
Standing right beside you is where i want to be
I just know it
You are the one
And when there's gray in our hair
And we've not much to do
I want to spend the rest of my days with you...
Oh don't you know it?
You are the one, You are the one
Oh won't you be the one?
Sunday, October 19, 2014
Cerita pagi tadi.
First time naik Nuang secara solo.
First time juga training marathon kat sini. Tak penah aku panjat Nuang secara berlari ok. Selalu tu hiking biasa ja. Bagai nak pitam rasanya.
Paling tak sangka boleh jumpa ramai muka familiar kat sini.
Jumpa geng ultra, Ezam & Nasir.
Jumpa geng gunung, Apek Pinky, Idan, Mat Wei, Fadli, Zul, Tumang.
Jumpa sorang mamat macam mat salleh. Dia cakap, dia salah seorang dari reader blog aku. Pehh.. malu siot.
Timing dari Pangsun ke puncak Nuang 2 jam 40 minit.
Thanks to Kak Ude & husband for accompanying me at starting point :)
In case I forgot to jot down kat sini, I'm running for Nuang Marathon 42km on 9 Nov! Climbathon actually. Naik gunung Nuang dari Pangsun ke Janda Baik & patah balik ke Pangsun.
Another keje gila untuk tahun nih!