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Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Conversation with kiddos

Just now.

Kiddos enjoying their breakfast makan roti and donut sambil tengok tv and ipad.

Then I stand in front of them making a little announcement.

Me : "Guys, mommy have something to tell you"

Then Ariff quickly turn off the tv and asked Amarr to pause the video on the ipad.

Normal reaction to show me that they're interested to listen to whatever I'm going to say. Don't u love them! They're awesome.

Ariff : "What mommy?"

Me : "Mommy is going to take you to somewhere special"

My trademark words. I emphasized each word. Love to use them to make kiddos more excited.

Ariff : "Where?!"

Amarr : "Supermarket?"

Nak tergelak dengar Amarr cakap camtu. Fine, sebab  mommy asyik bawak korang pegi supermarket je kan.. beli ikan.. tskk.

Me : "No sayang, we are not going to the supermarket.  We are going to a place where we can see a lot of animals!"

Ariff : "We are going to the Zoo?! Yayyy!!"

Amarr : "There's a lot of dinosaur kan mommy?"

Me : "There's no dinosaur in the Zoo, baby. But there's elephant, giraffe,  zebra...."

Then all of sudden Amarr crying like mad! Macam somebody rampas something dari dia.

Aku pandang Ariff and Ariff pandang aku. I was like, what?? Did I say something wrong?

Took me 15 mins to calm him down.

Lepas Amarr ok. Aku Google kat mana nak cari dinosaur.  Maybe Ariff dengar aku kalut sorang2 then dia bagi suggestion;

Ariff : "We can watch dinosaur in the movie. Mommy buy the ticket"

Thats a brilliant idea from a 5 years old kids.

But, cerita apa yang ada dinosaur kat cinema sekarang ni???

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

You Are The One

..for my Beau..




I thought of this over a million times
Who would have ever thought that it will be our time?
I just know it,
'cause you are the one

It ain't a selfish love, when I'm with you
You remind me of Allah and so I know it's true
I'll just say it
You are the one

Won't you be my BFF and ever?
Won't you be my partner after this world?
We'll see it, when we believe it together
Dreams are meant to be
'Cause you are the one for me

I never thought that I would feel this way
I ask Allah to bless you every single day
I'll just say it
'Cause you are the one

And when the times are tough
And we've got the world to see
Standing right beside you is where i want to be
I just know it
You are the one

And when there's gray in our hair
And we've not much to do
I want to spend the rest of my days with you...
Oh don't you know it?
You are the one, You are the one
Oh won't you be the one?



Sunday, October 19, 2014

Solo run @ Gunung Nuang

Cerita pagi tadi.

First time naik Nuang secara solo.

First time juga training marathon kat sini. Tak penah aku panjat Nuang secara berlari ok. Selalu tu hiking biasa ja. Bagai nak pitam rasanya.

Paling tak sangka boleh jumpa ramai muka familiar kat sini.

Jumpa geng ultra, Ezam & Nasir.

Jumpa geng gunung, Apek Pinky, Idan, Mat Wei, Fadli, Zul, Tumang.          

Jumpa sorang mamat macam mat salleh. Dia cakap, dia salah seorang dari reader blog aku. Pehh.. malu siot.    

Timing dari Pangsun ke puncak Nuang 2 jam 40 minit.

Thanks to Kak Ude & husband for accompanying me at starting point :)

In case I forgot to jot down kat sini, I'm running  for Nuang Marathon 42km on 9 Nov! Climbathon actually. Naik gunung Nuang dari Pangsun ke Janda Baik & patah balik ke Pangsun.

Another keje gila untuk tahun nih!


Ayaq terjun kat Lolo

Jumpa Zul & Tumang picnicking kat Lolo

Sempatt bergambar..

Jumpa member baru on track. Depa pun training untuk Nuang Marathon


Muka bangga mission solo berjaya!

Kali ke 8 aku conquer Nuang! 

Jumpa Fadli (baju kuning) bawak student naik sini.

Student MRSM Alor Gajah

Friday, October 17, 2014

Dear sista

I feel u.

I miss u.

And I love u, gorgeous!

Can't wait for u to get fit and get back!

We are going to rock our world together. Like before! 

I've been all alone since u left early this year. I didn't climb for almost 9 months already. I wanna do it with you. Climb with u.

Cepat2 get the new little guy landed safely on earth

Then we can partayyyy

Like we use to!



Sis,

I knew that since u were little u always want to  be like me. U always said I'm ur twins.
U know sis, U are way better than me. Prettier than me. Soft yet very strong. U r just like our late mom. Ur height is like hers. Hidung kemek like hers. Fair skin like hers. Tough as her too. 

But don't be like her. Die of broken hearted. 

***************


..and sis, 

"We didn't lost in this game. We just stop playing. Coz it aint worth our time"

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Bad side of KL

Bila tiba2 sorang budak perempuan comot seusia Amarr berlari peluk kaki aku kat puduraya.

Tertoleh juga cari parents dia. Kot la tak perasan anak dia datang kat aku. Tapi macam semua orang kat situ buat tak peduli. Macam si kecil ni invisible.

Aku lepaskan pegangan tangan dia dari kaki aku. Dia pegang pula jari aku. Try lepaskan lagi, dua2 tangan aku pula dia pegang. Kuat. Tanak lepas.

Serba salah dibuatnya. Takkan aku nak tarik kuat2. Kang jatuh pulak dia. Aku siap cakap baik2 kat dia, "Let go, sayang.. please" (terbiasa cakap dengan kiddos camnih. Tataw lah dia faham atau tak).

Dalam kalut dan pelik, tiba2 si kecil ni minta duit dua ringgit.

I was like.. what?!

Rasa nak je aku terajang tukang ajar dan tukang paksa budak sekecik tu mengemis. Meh aku patahkan tulang empat kerat kau, baru kau tau macam mana rasa bila dah betul2 tak mampu nak bekerja cari duit.

Pegi mati la orang macam ni.

Perlahan aku lepaskan tangan aku dari budak kecil tu. Bagi dia duit. Haih. Ntah dia tau ke tak apa makna duit.

Kalau la aku boleh bawak dia balik rumah. Jaga & besarkan dengan sempurna.

Tapi things are not that easy. You can never underestimate the bad side of KL. I've seen some part of it. Wouldn't be surprised if it's a lot worst than that.

Semoga Tuhan melindungi dia.

BSN & SCKLM Marathon

Malas nak cerita tentang marathon back to back ni sebenarnya.

Epic yang sangat fail pada aku.. haha. Next time jangan nak gedik buat 2 full marathon b2b camnih.. unless kau adalah kategori ultra. Even geng ultra pun setengah nyawa nak habiskan SCKLM.

*Nangis*

Start dengan BSN or Putrajaya Night Marathon 42km. Good news, aku dapat buat PB. Tapi still tak puas hati dengan timing 05:06. Sedih. Tapi takde sedih sangat lah coz I got 16th placing. Siap dapat cash prizes beb! Unexpected.

SCKLM sila jangan tanya. A truly disaster.  Seriously, badan aku shut down totally after 13km lari. Almost pengsan ok. Paling obvious,  heart rate menggila. Rasa macam nak explode. Rasa macam kalau aku teruskan, confirm finish kat hospital.. haha. Tiga jam aku tersadai atas AKLEH. Nasib baik ada ramai marathoner yang sama2 terkandas dengan aku. Penangan b2b.

*Insaf*

BSN Putrajaya Night Run. Masih bersemangat time ni.

SCKLM at km 13 lepas tol atas AKLEH. Minta nyawa beb!

Home Rope for hammocks

Busy lately.

Busy keje. Busy training.  Busy layan episod cerita Jewel in the Palace dari mula sampai habis. Busy spend masa dengan orang2 yang aku sayang. Busy dengan plan itu ini. Super busy la kekdahnya.

Sekarang ni pulak, tengah bizi belajar camne nak drill skru untuk gantung hammock kat ruang tamu. Nak make sure skru tu kuat & selamat.

Found a few video tentang La Siesta. Masuk dalam list DIY project. Sure layan kalau baring dalam hammock kat dalam rumah. Heaven!

So, bila nak start. Tangan dah gatal nak men-drill nih!





Sunday, October 12, 2014

Cold Sunday

True, some people can stay in our heart not our life.

I dont deserve to be treated this way.

Friday, October 10, 2014

Another opportunity.

Boss tanya sama ada aku nak jadi trainer untuk Mortgage product.

Aku senyum je lah. Again, tak boleh nak decide.

Too many opportunities kat sini. Aku selalu buat tak kisah. Selalu lepaskan. Rasa macam susah nak lepaskan comfort zone sekarang dan explore benda baru.

Can't imagine myself jadi trainer. Berdiri dalam kelas depan student mature yang mostly sebaya or lebih tua dari aku. Omgg.. goyang beb!

Part yang best, I loveee the Academy! Environment kat situ macam kat dalam campus. Ada banyak sport facilities especially trek balapan. Boleh lari hari2.. haha.

Another part best, boleh beli landed property kat Bangi. Kalau kat Permaisuri, choice yang ada just rumah atas langit.

Part yang tak best, kalau kena Ulang alik dari Menara ke Academy kat Bangi. Tak suka travel. Tak suka nak habiskan masa atas jalan.

Kalau full time kat Academy takpa. Lagipun Bangi takde lah jem macam KL.

Another part yang tak best, offer Boss buat one of the manager kat sini macam tak puas hati kat aku. Lepas meeting tadi dia datang tanya kenapa boss offer position tu kat aku. Honestly, I have no idea why. Aku just boleh jawab, rezeki hari Jumaat, maybe.

Rupanya she wanted that position. Dah lama dia request for it tapi tak dapat.

Haih.

Anyway, we will see.

Road to Ultra

Esok adalah kegilaan sebenar yang aku akan buat dalam tahun ni.

Lari back to back untuk dua full marathon dari malam membawa ke siang. Total distance 84 km. Total hours I'll be running on road (plus minus) 11 ke 12 jam!

Start dengan Putrajaya Night Run 42km pukul 8.00pm malam esok, expected finish time at 1.30am, pastu sambung lari SCKLM 42km pukul 4.30am pagi Ahad, expected habis pukul 10.30am.

In between dedua race ni, aku just ada masa kurang dari 3 jam untuk rehat, refresh, makan & travel dari Putrajaya ke KL.

Body & mental condition good
Training.. err.. kelautt
Lutut macam ada prob sikit (right side) definitely tak boleh buat PB.

Target just nak enjoy the run & finish without injury.

Lately semua tempat jerebu. Not good. Seems macam setiap tahun, timing yang sama.. jerebu melanda. Musim jerebu.

Thursday, October 09, 2014

I feel u

Terbaca post my aunty kat one of Austism group in FB. My aunt doesn't know I'm in that group too. 

Sedih.

Boleh imagine apa yang my aunty go through. I knew exactly what she feel. 

I've been in the same situation. Worst, I can say. Cuma mine was like 25 years back. When I was 10.

Then terbayang muka Iman yang sangat pendiam & suka tersenyum. He's a good kid. I wanted to help him. I really want to. How?


Ugly feet

Another toenail falling off. Great.

Aritu jari tengah kaki kiri. Now jari tengah kaki kanan. Wohoo.. Kuku kaki yang lain pulak ada few yang dah start kehitaman.

Kesan akibat terlalu aktif outdoor.

Nasib baik dah kawin beb. Kalau tak, lari boyfriend tengok awek kaki buruk camni.

Kuku kaki amik masa 6 bulan untuk tumbuh semula tau. Nak pulih sepenuhnya macam biasa amik masa almost setahun gak la. Tapi kalau dah hari2 keje kan kaki ni.. memang nan hado la masa nak baik... tsk.

Kalau pasnih aku pilih untuk aktif climbing semula, confirm tapak tangan jadi tebal, kasar & buruk.. wakakaka.. but I like!

Talking about tangan, tahu tak jari yang paling kuat sekali adalah jadi kelingking? Jari kedua kuat, jari tengah, pastu baru lah diikuti dengan ibu jari, jari telunjuk dan lastttt sekali jari manis (thats what I learn in climbing class).

So change your perception. Jari telunjuk bukan jari terkuat okeh :)

Wednesday, October 08, 2014

When I don't care, I don't care.

I loveee beautiful handwriting.

Really admire people with tulisan cantik2 ni.

Mine memang disaster. Sendiri tulis pun kadang2 tak boleh baca. Well nak buat camne kan.. intelligent people memang tulisan agak disaster (hahaha.. pegila mamp*s)

My dad punya tulisan adalah yang tercantik yang pernah aku tengok (ok, I'm bias. He's my dad, sukatik la kan).

Anyway, I wonder how he can write notes laju2 dengan tulisan secantik tu. Aku belek buku sekolah dia masa dia kat Sekolah Alam Shah dulu.. siyes, wow! Boleh jatuh cinta kat orang tulisan cantik nih!

Bukan setakat tulisan rumi, jawi dia pun unik! Ada style. Suka sangat setiapkali tengok dia tulis rumi & jawi.

Eh.. rumi & jawi? Macam familiar.. Macam romeo & juliet (mati lah takde kaitan.. kasi panggg sedas kat budak aD nih)

Masa kecik2 dulu, my dad selalu hantar nota cinta kat arwah ibu. Cantik tulisan dia. Dia tulis atas kertas timah pembalut kotak rokok. I dah exist masa my dad mengurat arwah ibu tau.. haha. Btw, I bukan anak angkat okeh. I was 10 at that time. My parents divorced masa tu. Berpisah tanpa rela.

Tapi taim tu tak faham sangat bahasa cinta. Tapi suka tengok tulisan ja. Even sampai sekarang, ayah still maintain tulisan yang sama. Cantik.

Ok that's it.

Let's berambus balik. Kepala ting tong.

Tuesday, October 07, 2014

Non productive day

Lucky minggu ni start dengan hari Selasa. Cepat sikit weekend.

Still tak dapat berat ideal sebelum lari back to back 84k minggu ni. Susah gila kot nak tambah berat. Sehari makan sampai dua tiga kilo tapi berat naik tak sampai setengah kilo.. how?

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Balik keje petang tadi jumpa pisang abu bantut kat kedai. Kiddos suka pisang goreng. So, menu sampingan malam ni, pisang goreng!

Monday, October 06, 2014

Conversation Ariff

Last night.

Having this sinfully delicious Magnum Almond ice-cream at wee hours sambil fikir bila lah hero kecik ni nak tido.. haih..

Ariff   : Look, I can open the car engine
Me       : Careful, not to break it
Ariff   : Its just a toy, mommy.

Fine. Ada je jawapan dia.

But still.. that toy is not cheap, anakk.. tsk tsk

What if

Its a long day today.

Awal pagi plan lsd 20k. Tapi stop at 16k. Lari tanpa minum air. Gila haus.

Been thinking about a lot of thing masa lari. Mostly about future. Things I planned. Things I'm doing to achieve that plan. And unexpected thing happened in between.

Been wondering what's gonna happen if I change my plan a bit. Include the current. Or what happen if I just jump over it and proceed to original plan.


Sunday, October 05, 2014

Cut own hair

Mamoru: Couldn't wait till the saloon open huh?

Me: No. They won't cut it they way I wanted.

Mamoru: ???

Me: They will suggest something else. I'll end up with frustration. Better I cut it myself..

Half an hour later..

Mamoru: Your hair look nice

:)

Im through

Many years ago, our father Ibrahim (AS) made a choice. He loved his son. But He loved God more. The commandment came to sacrifice his son. But it wasn’t his son that was slaughtered. It was his attachment.

It was his attachment to anything that could compete with his love for God. And the beauty of such a sacrifice is this:

"Once you let go of your attachment, what you love is given back to you–now in a purer, better form."

So let us ask ourselves in these beautiful days of sacrifice, which attachments do we need to slaughter?

-Yasmin Mogahed-

Ariff & Amarr conversation

Movie marathon all morning with Amarr. He keep on asking everything the actors said in the movie.

"Mommy, what is WEAK"?
"What is COWARD"?

p/s: First time watching movie with kiddos. All this while only Nick Jr channel ja allowed kat rumah ni. Pray the actor tak cakap mender mengarut.. tskk.

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Daddy: Have you finish clean up your toys?
Ariff: Nearly done.

My Ariff, always make me impress with choices of words he's using.

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Ariff nak susu tak? Mommy tanya ni, Ariff nak minum susu tak?

Ariff: "I'm thinking. Hmm.. I think so"

Jawapan tu kalau kasi straight boleh dakk. Sabar ja.

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"Mommy, Ariff minum banyak air today. Now Ariff drunk"

Omgggg... my son! Mana belajau ni nakkk oii...

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When your 4 years old son request bukan2 sebelum tidur:

Amarr   : Mommy, I want some lemonade.
Me         : ??????

Selalu minta susu ja.. *Stress mak kau nakk. Mana nak cari lemon tetengah malam buta ni*

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Last nite Ariff said, "I want to be a baby again".
I asked him why. He replied, "I'm too big. Mommy cannot carry Ariff. I dont want to walk. I'm tired walking".
Aww, sayang.. u will always be my baby. I will try to carry you for as long as I can. Mommy promise.

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Serious tak suka pergi kenduri! Esp bila kiddos tak cooperative. Sikit lagi mommy nak bertukar warna hijau bila tengok Ariff duduk atas telur! "I want to keep the baby chick warm" katanya.
*headache*

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Wearing my MWM 42km finisher skirt just now, and this is what I get:

Amarr: Mommy wear skirt? Mommy nampak macam perempuan la

Me: WHAT?! (Selama ni I bukan perempuan ke? Tsk )

Then Ariff save my day.

Ariff: No lah Amarr. Mommy look like a princess.

Aww.. sweettt.

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Ariff: Mommy how to put this on (referring to his kopiah)
Me: Come here, err.. tunduk in english apa eh (talking to myself)
Ariff: You want me to duck my head?
Me: Hahaha.. yes.

His engish is better then me. Haha.

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Pakcik jual ice cream berhentikan motor tepi pantai.
Me : Ariff, do you want some ice cream (sambil tunjuk ice cream dengan cone)
Ariff : I want a popsicle.
Aku : ???? (Cakap dengan diri sendiri)  Menatang apa popsicle ni? (Ambil phone google)

Popsicle = Ice cream or water ice on a small wooden stick; "in England a popsicle is called an ice lolly"

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Baca bedtime story untuk Ariff memang kena banyak sabar. Bukan sebab dia tak suka dengar. Tapi sebab dia terlalu suka sampai paksa aku baca lebih dari 3 jenis buku untuk dia setiap malam. Demand ok. Kengkadang tu siap betulkan apa yang aku baca:

Aku: The cat love to sing and dance.
Ariff: That is not a cat. It was supposed to be a tiger.
Aku: ???!!!

Haih. Bukan ke bedtime sepatutnya buat kids tertido ke? My kids terbalik. Makin eager nak dengar cerita. Camne?

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Ariff: Amarr, leys play pretend. Ariff jadi Diego,  Amarr jadi baby Jaguar okay?
Amarr: Otey
Ariff: Baby Jaguar
Amarr: Yes?
Ariff: No, Amarr should say "rarrr rarrrr". Let's try again. Baby Jaguar?
Amarr:Rarrr raarrrrr
Ariff: Louder.
Amarr: Rawwrr rawrrrrrrr!!
Ariff: Good boy. Okay, let's go save the elephants.
Amarr: Otey. Rawwwrrr rawwwrrr.

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Suruh Ariff baca doa sebelum makan. Surprise bila hujung doa tu dia baca translation doa dalam english:

Allahumma barik lana fima razaqtana, waqina adhab-an naar.
O Allah! Bless (the food) you provided us and save us from the punishment of the fire.

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Ariff: Mommy hurry! I'm tired. I want to go home.
Aku: Ok, let's walk faster.
Amarr: Mommy look, funny faces (sambil buat mimik muka kelakar)
Ariff: Amarr, stop it! It's not funny. Hurry up!  I want to go  home.

Saturday, October 04, 2014

Erti kemenangan adalah..

...kalau dapat solat dan takbir raya sama2 dengan seisi keluarga lepas berbuka.

Indahnya.

Erti sebuah pengorbanan pula adalah, menggembirakan mereka2 semua.

Tenangnya..

Selamat Hari Raya

Things did not work as planned.

Here we are.. stuck in KL. Raya dirumah sendiri je lah.

Ok, not rumah sendiri. We rented this one.. haha.

Ok not funny.

Selamat Hari Raya.. anak2 mommy.

Selamat Hari Raya.. Mamoru

Selamat Hari Raya.. semua.

God have a better plan for all of us. We just don't know what it is yet. Till then.. kena redha.

Friday, October 03, 2014

:)

Something to ponder deep inside each and everyone of us.

Not to imply on others. But to ourself as an individual.

Think. And rethink.

Then berdoalah..

Sempena hari wukuf di Arafah.. doa orang yang berpuasa..

Semoga dimakbulkan.

Dan bertawakkal lah.

InsyaAllah aD.. insyaAllah.

Thursday, October 02, 2014

Hadapi Dengan Senyuman

Smile aD, this is for u. Put a smile on ur face :)




Hadapi dengan senyuman
Semua yang terjadi
Biar terjadi .
Hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
Semua… kan baik2 saja

Bila ketetapan tuhan
Sudah ditetapkan
Tetaplah sudah.
Tak ada yang bisa merubah
Dan takkan bisa berubah

Relakanlah saja ini
Bahwa semua yang terbaik
Terbaik untuk kita semua
Menyerahlah untuk MENANG..

Google+

Berfikir.

My phone connect directly dengan google+. So aku takkan hilang setiap gambar yang aku amik guna phone.

Yang buat aku curious, setiap gambar yang aku amik tu, orang lain boleh view atau just aku je? Kadang2 Google+ ada hantar notification untuk share photo album, video yang aku record, gambar kolaj, etc. Tapi aku ignore ja. Honestly, aku tak pernah share publicly semua gambar yang auto-store kat sini. Kecuali yang aku publish kat blog.

Tapi bila tengok total view kat Google+ sampai banyak camni, what does it mean eh? Semua orang boleh view ke? Like really?? 3.6 mil views?? What's so interesting?

Scary ok. Dengan streetview whatnot sekarang ni, semua orang boleh cari anything about u. Gosh.

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