I want peace too

Trying hard to:

Listen
Understand
Making up
or help

I may act like I don't care (I already have the whole world on my shoulder). But the truth is, I do. Hate to see u like that, girl. Rest assured, everything's gonna be alright.

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Dapat berita tak baik dari adik lelaki no.2 pagi ni. Seriously pissed off (sambungan kes masa raya ketiga hari tu).

Aku pantang betul kalau orang kurang ajar dengan ayah. Pada aku, ayah dah banyak beralah. Ayah mungkin boleh sabar beratus2 kali. Tapi kalau dah sampai ke telinga aku, sekali dua mungkin aku boleh buat pekak, tapi this time it's too much lah. Since that somebody memang mintak sangat di "ajar", let's kita ajar dia sikit.

Thanks to my running partner, Syah for the free legal consultation (haha). His explanation really open up my eyes. There are actually chances - hopes!

Rasa sangat best pula ada lawyer as a friend.

Now it's payback time. Tapi niat aku, bukan kenakan dia or sesiapa. Aku just nak dia berhenti dari ganggu ayah. Dan aku nak ayah dapat semula hak dia.

To that somebody,

Don't mess with pewaris Mat Sam. You are never belong here or in the family.

We may win or lost in this battle. But you are definitely going to answer this to each and every cucu cicit Mat Sam kat akhirat nanti for all that u have done. 

Stress tahap dewa

Cepatlah weekend.

Tak larat dah ni. Lately asyik jadi orang last keluar ofis. Balik rumah pukul sembilan / sepuluh malam. Pengsan.

Lebih sakit hati bila staff lain guna whatsapp as medium untuk hal berkaitan kerja.

Hello? If the company pay my phone bills, I dont mind entertain this kind of work requests. But this is my personal number. Tak kira urgent macam mana, just contact me during office hours and use office direct line only. C'mon. Common sense sikit.

Terrible.

Looking forward for this weekend. Nak buat LSD. Prepare untuk 42km The River Jungle Marathon kat Hulu Langat.

Oh. Weekend ni Mamoru will be away. Amik lesen diving kat Tioman. Sounds like fun! Tapi aku tak minat diving. I got issue with water.. haha. Setakat berenang permukaan air boleh lah. Dalam air.. seriously NO. I'm a claustrophobic person. Tak boleh laa...

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Have fun B! Muahs!

Congrats

Congrats geng ultra runners (Ijoy, Ghaz, Ezam & otai Yunus) for completing 84km ultra marathon in Penang.

Congrats Abg Min for completing the 21km half marathon in Penang

Congrats Syah for completing the 16km run in Putrajaya.

Congrats Arina, Am & Abg Reen for completing 10km run in Putrajaya.

Congrats Epi for completing the 10km PJ Run

Well done Kak Aza & Baman for completing the Nuang run (Renjer-Peak-Renjer).

*paused*

Remind me again why I didn't join the run today?

*sigh*

Lost temper

For some reason,  I really hate myself today.

Mommy sorry Ariff
Mommy sorry Amarr

Mommy love both of u so much. Too much.

Seminggu tak lari

Masuk hari ni, genap 6 hari tak training. Tak lari. Tak exercise.

Selalu kalau skip training lebih 2 hari, mood memang kelaut kedarat. Tapi kali ni pelik. Rasa kosong. Takde rasa tak puas hati dengan performance sendiri tho naik tangga ofis pun rasa tersangkut2 nafas. Dan takde juga rasa hepi. Tak tau nak describe macam mana. Takde perasaan kot.

Atau mungkin tak sempat nak fikir sebab minggu ni kepala serabut dengan keje. Keje pun tengah menggila. Budget planning week. Next week pulak budget challenge session. Stress.

Haih.

Minggu ni aku letgo Mizuno Run 16km. Tapi still takde buyer. Nak je aku larikan sendiri, tapi takut sakit hati pulak dengan timing. Double stress.

Great Eastern 10km, Makna 15km, & 2XU 21km pun aku nak letgo. Kes main register bebanyak race pastu bila ada race yang lagi menarik, terpaksa la let go bib yang sedia ada.. haha.

Dulu aku pegi hiking sebab hiking bagi aku unexplainable satisfaction. Running pulak merely distraction. Distract aku dari terlalu banyak berfikir. Dari stress. Keep me sane.

Tapi sekarang I can proudly say, I run for satisfaction! Running dah jadi personal. Its me. My private time. Sebab tu kadang2 bila aku masuk race sorang2. I really enjoy my moment. Every minutes of it. I dont have to think about anybody or anything else. I get to choose my own pace. So bila each time aku habis lari, aku boleh berbangga dengan timing sendiri. Tho takde la dapat podium. But good thing, i finish strong.

I have a wish. To run alone. In certain event lah. Maybe yang jauh2 dari KL. Not that I didn't enjoy running with my buddies, friends. But sometimes I just love to explore things my way. Macam hiking jugak lah. Sometimes I pegi sorang. Join team yang aku tak kenal. Make new friends. Its interesting.

I'm so lucky Mamoru understand this. I dont bother if others dont.

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Crazy week. Tambah pulak dengan SD card kaputtt. Confirm banyak data hilang. Esp my running record and few other things.

Tentang gambar tak risau pun. Lucky aku guna Google+. Save every photo the moment you snap the pics. Even whatapps photos, screenshots, video semua selamat dalam Google+. You can view online, download or delete anytime. 

My Suunto bateri pun kaputtt jugak. Perfect.  Hilang semua data dalam tu.

BBIM Field Trip to National Science Centre

First time benarkan kiddos pergi field trip tanpa aku or Mamoru.

Tak risau sangat sebab aku percaya kat teacher & Principle BBIM. Diaorang semua capable handle semua kiddos.

But still...couldn't help myself from texting their teachers before, during & after the trip.. haha. Normal kan.. Other parents dalam group whatapps BBIM pun text benda yang sama.

Both of my kids have fun. They really enjoy the trip. Sebab asyik la bercerita tentang rocket, space, etc.

Million thanks to all BBIM teachers. You girls did a very good job! Its not easy to handle lotsa kids fr 3 - 6 years old pegi open space like that. Aku bawa 2 hero ni pun rasa nak pengsan.. haha. Well done!

?

Tido awal. Belum pukul 10 malam dah hanyut dah anak beranak nih.

Pastu bangun kelam kabut. Ingat dah pukul 6 pagi. Rupanya bru pukul 12 tengah malam.

Haih.

Good thing, boleh makan dinner yang lupa nak makan petang tadi.

Bad thing, berjaga sampai esok la gamaknya nih.

Stayback

Perkara yang paling tak suka: stayback kat ofis sorang2, malam2. Boleh tahan penakut gak aku ni.. haha.

Call Mamoru tak dapat. Call few other friends tak pick up.

Nanges.

Lucky Mamoru return call few mins later. Maybe dia terkejut tengok banyak notification dari nombor aku.

Was already crying when he called.. hahaha vongoks. Nangis2 sambil menaip kat pc.

"Kenapa ni? Sakit ke? Boss marah? Ada orang kacau?"

"aD sorang2 kat ofis lagi.." *sambung nangis*

"Kenapa tak balik lagi? Tutup pc sekarang. Balik. Keje esok pun boleh buat"

"Dateline hari ni".. *nangis lagi*

"Nak B balik KL malam ni ke? B dengan boss ni"

"No, just teman aD sekejap boleh? 15 mins. Nak submit email ni ja.."

Stressed dengan next year punya budget yang asyik nak kena amend.  Dateline pulak tak agak2. Bagi template hari ni, tapi suruh submit semalam. Sakit jiwa. Keje yang sedia ada langsung tak berusik plus lapaq dari pagi tak makan.

Thanks Mamoru for listening. Thanks for "teman" malam ni. Sorry buat dia risau. I have never been that weak. Nak period kot.. haha.

PBIM

Thanks to Aisya tolong collect kan race kit Penang Bridge ni semalam. Dengar cerita sampai berjam2 beratoq tengah panas.

I've registered for 42km full marathon. Tapi tak decide lagi nak pegi ke tak. Worried about kiddos. Takut takda orang nak jaga.

Dengar cerita, finisher tee dia awesome. Tempting. We'll see.

My bib no B10375

Guocoland 12km

Cerita pagi tadi.

Drive dari Melaka ke Sg Pelek, Sepang. Memang pelik betul jalannya. Berlubang semedang. Gelap pulak tu.

Sampai ja orang dah start lari. Mmakk jadi orang lassttttt lari kat starting point. Kelass ok.

Route best. Road, Beach, Off road. Cuma water station yang last agak hazabb. Jauh nauu. Tapi couldn't be bothered pun. Hakak enjoy the run. Sangat!

Lepas lari pegi tengok rumah contoh Guocoland. Starting price RM300++. Mahal jugak lah untuk rumah kat ceruk dunia camtu. Tapi sangat jatuh cinta dengan design dalam rumah contoh! Gave me an idea to deco mine!

Ayah open house

Awas. Entry ini mengandungi fotogedik yang berlebihan.. wahahaha.

Gambar masa open house kat rumah baru semalam.

Gambar kenduri takde. Gambar hakak je berlambak. Koser ah amik gambar guests.

I have fun spending time dengan the siblings. My hadik2 ipar being so rajin menolong kat dapur. Hakak ja mengelat duduk kat depan.. hahahahaammmmpunnn uols.

Note:

Dapat few bad news dari Makcik & my stepmum. Aku tak boleh tolerate kalau ada saudara-mara yang bersikap kurang ajar dengan ayah. Ayah been hiding it from all of us since raya ke-3 lagi. Maybe sebab dia tahu aku ni baran especially bab2 family. I would have serang that fella if I find out about it earlier. Yep, I would. Teringat masa tahun 2005 dulu, ayah leraikan aku bertumbuk dengan pengkid just because dia kacau my sis. Ok, tu cerita dulu when I was young and dangerous (la sangatt). Maybe kalau aku jumpa that fella, I would've act in a more mature way.

2nd bad news was about banjir. Rumah lama ayah naik air lagi. Sama macam kes tahun 2008 dulu. Air  naik sampai lutut. Syukur, ayah dah pindahkan semua barang2 ke rumah baru. Just in time. Alhamdullilah. Cuma buku2 lama ja tak selamat. Boleh imagine semua buku zaman study, thesis, gambar masa zaman kanak2 berendam dalam banjir. Too bad.

Things happened for a reason.

My contact make me looks like an alien. Kesah?

With my fav sis

Selfie means mental? Kesah!

Cas ayu wahaha

My sis. I love her glowing skin. Make me feels hitam sangat duduk sebelah dia ni

Being sengal whenever we're together

I love her dress. Saiz xs okeh. At 7 months preggy!

Berdaghah idung tak tengok gambar syok sendiri berlambak kat sini? Wahahaha.

Oh, this is the real aD.. wahahahaha.. Hilang ayu sopan segala!

Chillin with #Longchan. Air fav orang Melaka

Muka tak puas hati bila paksa bergambar

Cheeky

My brother dgn my my youngest nephew, Akram

Boys!

Ni ja sempat snap. Pastu asyik kedaghah je.. wahahaha.

My adik ipar, Sue hantar gambar ni kat whatsapps group. Antara gambar yang selamat dari banjir. Gambar tahun 2005 kot. Me and my sis. I look kinda boyish dulu. I like.

Friday yay!

Hazabb betul nak tunggu hari ni. Haih.

Malam ni last training.

Esok sesi memenuhkan perut kat kampung.

Cepat lah malam.

Tak sabar nak balik. Nak balik. Nak balik.

Note:

Ada sorang blog reader tanya tips untuk lari long distance. Sorry yang, hakak dalam proses mengarang reply untuk u. Seriously sorry sebab amik masa tiga empat hari nak reply.

Bukan senang ok nak buat karangan yang memerlukan fakta camni. Karangan kat blog ni pun banyak merapik meraban ja. Ikutkan akak boleh ja petik artikel dari bulan bintang. Tapi for sure semua tu u boleh google kan.

Takpa, akak try bagi dari akak punya personal experience. Tapi bear in mind ya, hakak pun baru ja dalam arena marathon ni :)

Dresscode

They imposed new dresscode.

Being rebel, I don't give a damn pun.

Tapi, bertempat lah juga. Ko nak keje lama kat sini ke tak? Wahahahaha.

Official meeting, baru sarung. Stanby bawah meja dengan kasut yang lain.

Nak catwalk, dalam office ja boleh. Kalau kat luar tak berani beb. Terkehel kang, mau sebulan tak dapat lari.

This one I've bought more than two years ago (rasanyalah). Tak penah pakai gi office. Hari ni baru rasmikan.

I am 5 inch taller today!

aD.. aD.. haih.

Timberland vs Charles & Keith

Siap ukur kau! Use with caution ok aD.

Our path crossed

I saw good people walk towards me.
She stop for a while next to me.
We stared at each other.
Then I let her pass by

Morning freaks

I feel good.. na na na na na ~

Despite trip ke Lata Medang kena pospon.. haha.

Ayah plan nak buat open house Sabtu ni kat Melaka. So, mesti balik. The siblings and ipar semua nak buat kambing golek. Teruja..

Hope the girls tak kecewa.. Lagipun sekarang dah start musim hujan. Takut jugak jadi kepala air. We'll plan this some other time ya. Soon! Promise.

Prepare packed breakfast for kiddos. Ariff love his kaya bread. Amarr won't eat bread unless we cut it into shapes. 

Baraan Kuala Selangor

After 3 years tak join baraan dengan kengkawan di Kuala Selangor, tahun ni baru dapat luangkan masa.

It was FUN!

2 Syawal

Masih di Melaka.

Ramai adik beradik yang dah bertolak balik ke rumah mertua masing2 hari ni.