m.n.m 2

susah org nk tgk aku marah.. dlm keadaan apa pun, aku akan cuba yg terbaik utk jaga hati org.. ketepikan semua rasa tak puas hati.. bak kata pok yie dulu, jgn pandang keburukan org, cari kebaikan dlm diri mereka, betulkan diri sendiri dulu.. mungkin, kita yg bersalah

Every time I look, every time I stare upon a mirror
I really dunno who I thought I knew for years
Who’s the girl I see, she’s been fooling me
Keep telling me wut I thought I wuz supposed to be
27 years has passed, I made a lot of sacrifice
I did everything for everybody but me!
No one can really tell, I hide my tears so wellBut by that time they look they can only see the smile.

kenkadang, aku rasa aku dh cukup faham apa yg aku nak dlm hidup ni.. biarpun ada kurang di mana-mana, still, aku rasa kekurangan tu tak cukup kuat utk calarkan apa yg aku ada sekarang.. tp, tak pd org lain.. kekurangan aku selalunya dijadikan punca..

Sometime I wonder, did they care as I much I care?
Would they really care to do they things I’ve done?
Anyway, don’t matter if they don’t do the same to me
I still been doing things I do, you see
My life is like a burning candleBringing joy to people, giving like though how much its hurting me.
If dat the way its gotta be then let it beBy the time the pain is too deep too hard.

kenkadang takde siapa tahu saat aku tgh marah / sedih.. saat aku susah / senang.. saat aku bebetul perlukan seseorg yg boleh aku percaya.. bukan senang beb utk aku simply share apa yg ada dlm hati nih dgn org lain.. kenal setahun dua pun belum tentu dapat korek apa yg ada dlm kepala aku nih.. sadly, bila kita dh jumpa org yg kita boleh rely on.. ppl tend to give their jugdements.. without knowing wut is really going on.. more worst, without trying to understand wut i've been thru all diz while.. sad isnt it? or perhaps aku je yg rasa camtu.

Every time I tried to tell myself dat everything’s okay
I cant deny I crying all than I can say..
God have mercy, please give me.. give me.. show the light to me
So I can give they joy the people wanna feel
So I can live another day until I have no will
To my heart, can no longer take diz pain
No longer sleep at night, I don’t wanna live another day
Don’t wanna fall apart
I juz wish I could vanish all that breaking meJuz leave the misery and don’t look back.. I wont look back
hm, dah lumrah bila mender yg buat kita hepi tu selalunya tak boleh buat org lain gembira.. tp, dlm nk pastikan org sekeliling kita tertawa, kita pulak yg merana.. *sighs*.. biarlah..

Everyday I pray I have the strength to carry on
Every night and day I pray things working my way
Well its better be dat way, with the dangerous game I play
But no one have to know all the heartache I take
Its nightmare out there
I got no one to share troubles in my mind... in my mind I bear
If dats the way is gotta be then let it be
By the time the pain too deep to hard.